Surviving After Walking Away in Breast Cancer

I brought this over from my http;// blog because I drank the breast cancer koolaid, it tasted good at first, then it went bad.

After Breast Cancer I have missed you.  I had some deep soul-searching to do.  I have also been busy with my incredibly successful business.  I needed to heal from being blind-sided by a former friend and partner.  All of this took time or took a toll or took a piece of my heart.

I don’t think there is any betrayal worse than that betrayal that comes from someone you trusted, someone who was almost family, someone who built you up for months only to tear you down in 5 days.

It’s all good now, so I have decided as I approach my 20th year and look back at things I went through recently that I would write about what I am grateful for here.

  • I am grateful that I can honestly say what I do in the name of breast cancer is NOT to put money in my pockets, but to give it to those who need it.
  • I am grateful that I am who I am, NO pretense, that what you see is what you get and that means you would never see me walk around as if I am better than you.
  • I am grateful that everything I have planned in breast cancer is to truly help others, to feed their spirits, and NOT my ego.
  • I am grateful that my husband has NEVER had to have a talk with me about my behavior.
  • I am grateful that I know better than to ever tell someone to NOT have conventional medical treatment.
  • I am grateful that I have NEVER put my hands on someone and told them that I can feel breast cancer in their body because I can’t.
  • I am grateful that I have NEVER said “don’t have a mammogram,” because I wouldn’t.
  • I am grateful that I have never said I had breast cancer twice, the second time I healed myself.
  • I am grateful that I have NEVER said that maybe my beliefs are too “woo-woo” because my beliefs are not.
  • I am grateful that I have NEVER said Stage 4 breast cancer serves the women who have it.

I could write more things I am grateful for – the point of my gratefulness is that when you take the words “never, not, no” out of those things I wrote that I am grateful for you might see what I moved on from and realize that while opposites attract they don’t make good partners in beliefs.


Related posts:

More Personal Thoughts About Breast Cancer 10/08/08
There is Humor in Breast Cancer 10/09/08
It's Back - The 3 Day Breast Cancer Walk Tampa Bay!


  • Yolem says:

    Hey Carole! I read almost all the posts about Breast Cancer and I admire what you have done and how you fought against cancer. I also admire the fact that Breast Cancer isn’t the only challenge that you have battled and won. Most of your posts are related to Breast Cancer and how you learned to thrive with it was phenomenal. That’s why I have a particular question for you: do you think surviving a cancer means living with it in your memory for the rest of your life?

    • admin says:

      Today I am actually doing a post about my life, it’s my birthday and I feel a post about that coming on. There are many days when I don’t think about having had cancer, but I also work in it with a non-profit foundation and that keeps breast cancer in my mind but it isn’t always my experience it is breast cancer in general.

  • Paige Zielinski says:


    My name is Paige. I am from Portland, Oregon. I would like to ask you if you could donate advertising space to my friend Larissa Craig, for her beautiful jewelry business, Oracle Moon. Larissa has just survived breast cancer and has some bills she needs to pay. I have known her since we were little girls and I think she is an exceptional woman. I realize there are hundreds of thousands or organizations and charities to help people with cancer, but she really wants to do this on her own. I think that her experience has made her want to succeed in all aspects of her life and provide a strong example to her daughter. I’ve enclosed some links to her story if you’re interested. Thank you for your time and consideration.

  • Women are the heavenly gifts of love and care to the mankind. Now, it’s our time to give them the respect and care that they truly deserve.You are a fighter.

    Breast cancer is the most common cancer in women around the world. Inspite of the fact that Breast Cancer is completely curable by early detection, India is loosing innumerable precious lives due to lack of awareness, late diagnosis and inadequate treatment.

    So we need to make more awareness program for women…

    Happy New Year to and your family and best wishes for you.

    Thank you

  • Jenn says:

    I always love reading posts by survivors.. Truly amazing and inspiring people. To have to go through such a thing on that level i just could not imagine it. Well done on fighting and beating it and to be able to talk about it 20 years later! It’s also lovely that you are helping others in need to.

    I agree with the previous comment that we need to make a more awareness program for women!

    I hope you have a lovely year and best wishes to you and your family.


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